I feel bummed out by my lack of discipline. I wish I could be like my brother or friends. i suck at forcing myself to do the things that I’m not necessarily enjoying. it takes forever for me to do schoolwork because I can’t force myself to do it. I have pushed my graduation back about four months (I’m year round). this has made my mental health all the more annoying to deal with, but the doom and gloom I feel isn’t enough to get me on track. the horrors persist. yet, I find myself forcing through it now. new year, same bs. except not really. i will be better.